Today was a struggle all over. First day back at ‘the day job’, struggling to get through benign emails, listening to everyone’s holiday stories, and attempting (and failing) to stay off the coffee. I spent all day staring at spreadsheets and working out complicated formulae, so it’s no surprise that I didn’t have any inspiration for today’s photo.
So this photo is really a culmination of a few days thinking (I’m still waiting for the last two photos to be sent to me, so I’ll backdate those soon). I finally finished my post on The Workshop with Jasmine Star and I think that solidified my thoughts. Until now I’ve been floating around with the ideas of what kind of photographer I want to be? What’s my style? How do I differentiate? What do I charge? etc etc etc. You may have noticed by my previous posts that I’m very driven by emotions, especially in the absence of direction. I go through a stage where ideas are felt out not thought out, and this leads to poor decision making. Don’t get me wrong, when there’s a tangible, hard decision to make, I’m the man. It’s black or white baby, and no second guessing. But I think the future holds too many permutations. The Jasmine Star workshop made me think hard about what I really want, and now that picture is clear, I can make the decisions necessary to get there.
So this picture is contrived, but I like it, I’m no longer a headless twit following the next person, I’m a leader in my own life.
